hey, so glad to hear he's doing better.  loads of problems are simply sorted by spending more ground time with your horse and trying new things with him, even if they dont seem directly connected.  dont let anything set you back, you almost have to change your mentality so that nothing is a big deal.... difficult i know!  i have a yearling and always being the role model is exhausting, and sometimes i feel really out of my depth.  but i've got 3 great books (from my hands to yours, monty roberts; perfect manners, kelly marks; and train your young horse, richard maxwell) for support.  and i buy the monthly mags (your horse, and horse and rider) for added inspiration.  the key is to never give up - nothing is ever impossible.  keep searching for that miracle and you'll find it!

xxx

he may never.......... sorry

It sounds like a frightening thing for both you and your horse.

It seems as though you have started well to desenstize him.  I wonder if it might help both of you if you also got some help.  we all know that nerves transmit and why shouldn't they, we are all energy after all.

Perhaps you could try some hypnotherapy techniques, just self hypno would be a start nothing too complicated, always keep it simple, just to feel a little more relaxed and to help re-build your confidence to make you a 'team' again. 

Hope it helps.  Good luck!.