I get extremely bad PMS. I mean, shockingly bad. Tears (so many tears..out of nowhere. Wailing, the lot) anger, hissy fits, rudeness.. you name it. I can't lie, my extraordinary PMS-ing doesn't fit well with horses. Sometimes I don't even know i'm about to have a ''fit'' lol until it's too late. 

Its a tuesday and every tuesday I have my lesson. I've actually been doing really well and have made some decent progress which is good. I took pony out too warm him up and then came back for my lesson. I actually took him out and did quite a lot with him yesterday just incase I couldn't ride tonight etc. 

I knew as soon as I started having my lesson, something was wrong *sighs*. I was riding really negatively - I had no energy and I think it really reflected on Parsley.. I did not ride him forwards and positively and he picked up on it - he was like 'ugh.. cannot be bothered. Sorry.' 

We were only like 10 minutes in and I'm not gonna lie, the tears came. I mean they literally came like a bloody waterfall. I apologised (alot lol!) and promised I stopped but I couldn't. Not cool lol. My instructer was really good about it as she was just as bad as me at her age and said I could stop if I wanted too. I took her up on it and ended it there - I was not in the mood, Parsley was not in the mood, I was riding like poo and I was deeply miserably. Wandered back onto the yard (full of like 10 people) and wailed some more. I couldn't stop. This happens all the time.. I think everything thinks I'm so weird, I even got some sympathy hugs. It passed and I was miserable..but not wailing. The calm AFTER the storm lol. 

It happens far too much. UGH. Cookie for your if you made it through all of that..