I get extremely bad PMS. I mean, shockingly bad. Tears (so many tears..out of nowhere. Wailing, the lot) anger, hissy fits, rudeness.. you name it. I can't lie, my extraordinary PMS-ing doesn't fit well with horses. Sometimes I don't even know i'm about to have a ''fit'' lol until it's too late.
Its a tuesday and every tuesday I have my lesson. I've actually been doing really well and have made some decent progress which is good. I took pony out too warm him up and then came back for my lesson. I actually took him out and did quite a lot with him yesterday just incase I couldn't ride tonight etc.
I knew as soon as I started having my lesson, something was wrong *sighs*. I was riding really negatively - I had no energy and I think it really reflected on Parsley.. I did not ride him forwards and positively and he picked up on it - he was like 'ugh.. cannot be bothered. Sorry.'
We were only like 10 minutes in and I'm not gonna lie, the tears came. I mean they literally came like a bloody waterfall. I apologised (alot lol!) and promised I stopped but I couldn't. Not cool lol. My instructer was really good about it as she was just as bad as me at her age and said I could stop if I wanted too. I took her up on it and ended it there - I was not in the mood, Parsley was not in the mood, I was riding like poo and I was deeply miserably. Wandered back onto the yard (full of like 10 people) and wailed some more. I couldn't stop. This happens all the time.. I think everything thinks I'm so weird, I even got some sympathy hugs. It passed and I was miserable..but not wailing. The calm AFTER the storm lol.
It happens far too much. UGH. Cookie for your if you made it through all of that..
It's lonely in the saddle since the horse died.